Moving on to the next level, is not as easy as I tot it would be. Well, thanks to my mum, I've been crying alot & been under a lot of stress. but all I've been trying to do, is trying to please her, trying to provide her with wat she would want for me, me being the eldest daughter, I know she wants the best for me. Haiz, I'm doing my best now, trying to match up her needs (more like her wants den needs). I'm just glad dat Kiddy understands my position/ situation. But that doesn't mean that things are settled for his side. I've yet to speak to them. Another sigh coming up... Haiz...
A funny thing abt problems in the family. Wednesday night, I had a huge arguement with mummy dearest, which led me to a cab, and off to Tampines St 22, where my darling kiddy is. Reached there ard 8plus. I was so tired dat kid forced me to sleep at his place. But by 11plus, as I was peacefully sleeping ( prolly even snoring cose of blocked nose from all the crying), kid woke me up. He wanted to send me home cause he was worried that my mum would be worried that I wasn't home yet, and might file a police report stating that kid has kidnapped me. THUS, I SO CALL RAN AWAY FROM HOME THAT NIGHT.
The next night (thursday), when I went back at abt 11 plus, I overheard mummy talking to one of her sisters abt another one of their sister (one of my aunties who was staying the same block as mine just one level up), who HAD RUN AWAY FROM HOME CAUSE SHE HAD A MISUNDERSTANDING WITH HER MOTHER (who happened to be my grandmother). That's 2 cases of run away from home 2 nights straight.
And just yesterday late morning, rcvd news from my cousin that upon my run away auntie to her home, she found that my grandma is missing! Now when me or my aunt ran away, there's not much worry cause we can very well take care of ourselves. But grandma? Her legs ain't that strong anymore... Called all 9 siblings, grandma had not contacted any of them. Aiyoh... nenek ku nenek ku... her eldest son (there's only 2 sons among her 9 children) even took half day to go look for nenek. Rcvd latest update from kuzzy ard 3pm, nenek has returned home. Apparently, she went Tekka for some "fresh air" ( little india for fresh air huh?), she went jalan2 and ate dosai. Den she went home. Nenek ku nenek ku.... Shud have just informed someone where she was going. But at this point of time, we 're all just glad that she's home safe.
3 run away case (well sort of lah) in 3 days under the same block, same family... haha... I Even got a warning from my cousin, that the next time I Wanna run away, I shud at least inform her so that she wouldn't worry so much... haha... we'll see abt that.
The night before I went off to Kota Tinggi, my cousins & relatives, just came back from their 3 days 2 night trip to melaka. And well, I'm not surprised that mama came back being possessed again. Came back to sengkang directly to my nenek house, where we layed her down in the living room. And I watched the whole event. Kinda scaring, but funny at times watching "her" actions (it was an old lady that was inside her, believed to be sent by someone). Mama even dance the traditional "Mak Yong" dance, a very traditional malay /thai dance routine. Her husband even joked abt it, saying that a normal person would need a few months to master the steps, but for his wife, just in one night. Haha... She actually started dancing when one of our uncles (who has always been the one treating her) arrived. And her steps are dance/ defence movements, which ended up with her giving my uncle 2 kicks (my uncle dodged both times) and finally she passed out. Anyways, all ended well, mama was better after a whole of abt 6-7 hrs of being possessed... Its a pity tho, watching her suffering, in great pain, esp when u can see that it was really my mama, trying to fight out watever was inside her. Poor thing...
Let me whisper... I love you...
